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I Have Changed!


Recently a friend had shared with me, how others were talking about me. They were talking about how I had changed, and how I was no longer the Gypsy they knew. As if to imply that it wasn’t a good thing.

Well, I will agree with whomever made that comment. With the exception that it is a positive change rather than a negative one.

I have always put others before myself and while sometimes that is a good thing, it can be detrimental to oneself as well. Everything requires a healthy balance. Sometimes we can get so caught up in, “doing” for others that we forget who we are in the process. Especially, when you’re a people pleaser like me.

This last year has been so challenging for me, however I have learned more about myself than at any other time. Maybe it’s because I’m getting older, and with heartache comes wisdom.

All my life I have worried about what other people thought about me. I wanted everyone to like me. This people pleasing attitude kept me in bondage during ministry and just everyday life.

Because I had a heart to serve, people used me and I didn’t know how to say, “No”. I didn’t want to say no, even at the expense of taking away from my family, because then people wouldn’t like me. And I wanted everyone to like me. I poured my heart, my time, and my life into these, “church” people.

But when God began to reveal to me the bondage I was in by this religious spirit that held me captive, I began to break away, I began to seek more of God and less of, “Church.” Now I’m not saying church isn’t good. It absolutely is, however you need to have discernment to know whether or not you’re in a healthy church with healthy spiritual people.

But as it turns out, as time would soon tell, the people I poured myself into, didn’t “REALLY” care about me at all. They cared about what I could do for them. I let them put me in a box and as long as I said and did what they wanted, they were happy with me.

God is showing me that it isn’t about how many hours I serve or don’t serve. He loves me. Just me. No more and no less. But I have to say that I got to a point in ministry and my personal life where I had to walk away.

I was tired of being hurt. I was tired of being used.  I was tired of the judgmental people who claimed to love Jesus, but the first ones to run you over when you fell. I was tired of the, “holier than thou” attitude. I was tired. I was sick and tired of people trying to be my holy spirit.

Those same people now, will tell others, “oh Gypsy isn’t the same, she’s changed, and you wouldn’t even know her.” And I have to say for once they are right!!

I’m not the same. I stopped caring what they think about me. I grew a pair and learned to stand up for myself! I have learned to say no. I have learned that not all people are going to like me or what I do and that it is perfectly okay.

I no longer let other people dictate my life, I no longer let people intimidate me. I don’t walk in fear, I am no longer depressed. I don’t need validation from other people to feel important. And people’s opinions of me whether good or bad do not determine how I feel about myself. For I serve an audience of ONE.

I am happy and I have peace in my life now. I have also learned through humble experiences to love people right where they are, sin and all. I have learned to keep my mouth shut and my judgmental thoughts to myself whenever they try and creep in and make me assume something about someone’s situation when I don’t have a clue!

So yes, I have changed. I have been humbled, I am wiser. I am stronger. And I walk in the freedom to be exactly who God created me to be, ME.

And it is my sincerest prayer that if you can relate to anything I have said, that you too will find the strength to change and walk in freedom of just being YOU.


**Letting Shame Go**

 I wanted to talk with you today about something that has been heavy on my heart the last few days. I’ve recently spoken to several people who with different life stories, share the same feelings of shame. It occurred to me that all too often we carry around way too much guilt. We often obsess over the past and what we could have or should have done. Or maybe it’s the things you shouldn’t have done that still plague you? Either way its not healthy.

God say’s that he has forgiven us, then why is it so hard for us to forgive ourselves? We walk around in a haze plagued by our own feelings of guilt and inadequacy, that ultimately it becomes a stumbling block in our walk.

I want to encourage you today to stand strong and try not to focus on the past. I know sometimes it is easier said than done, but you just need to make up your mind to do it. What I have learned with this subject is that God will not move you forward until your ready to let go of the past.

And remember God isn’t concerned about what you did or didn’t do in your past, he is focusing on what you still can do in the future. If there is any example of a person who was really messed up in the Bible and by any accounts should not have been worthy of anything God had., it was Paul.

But he turned out to be one of the most influential members in the bible. He was a man who killed Christians before he got saved, he was a murderer! But God used him mightily. So when you begin to feel inadequate, remember that God does not choose people who are qualified in their own right. If He did than He would not get the Glory. And besides, no such person exist, besides Jesus Christ himself.

Instead, He chooses messed up people like you and me, because we know in our own strength we couldn’t do anything without Him. So what? You’re a Christian and you messed up, maybe you messed up big time and your feeling condemned and that God doesn’t want to use you now.

Remember that Romans 3:23 says that ALL have sinned and have fallen short of the Glory of God. Every man, woman or child who was ever born or ever will be, Christian or not has a problem with sin. Again, learn to let go of that shame, guilt and feeling of worthlessness!!

God has made you for a great purpose but He wont do anything with you if you don’t allow Him into the inner most parts of your heart. He needs freedom in your life to really help you. But He wont do it without your permission.

I encourage you to let go of the shame of your past and begin to think and speak about your future in a positive way according to what God has placed in your heart, not according to what you have seen in the past or are seeing now in the present. He has a great future for you. Believe it and confess it. Be blessed and be encouraged.

“Open Your Mouth and I Will Fill It”

You know God never ceases to amaze me. This week I want to challenge you with my testimony. At the end of the year, I prayed and asked God to give me more, “God encounters,” In 2011. And by that I mean I wanted God to put more people in my path that needed to hear from Him. And He was not slow on answering my request.

Just 2 days later, my husband and I were having dinner in one of our favorite restaurants. I began looking around the room for someone to minister to. I knew God would pick someone; after all, there is someone everywhere we go. Now mind you, we can walk up to just about anyone in our own strength and try to minister to them. However, when it is a God encounter, God does the choosing, you just obey what He tells you to do. This was one of those times.

When we were done eating, I walked up to an elder man and told him what God had told me. His wife began weeping and thanked me. I blessed them and walked out. I felt so good, knowing that I had blessed someone. And yes I was nervous, I had no idea what I would say, but God said to me, “open your mouth and I will fill it.” And He did.

Two days later we were at another eating place; this one was a little scary. This person was a big biker looking man, covered in tattoos and piercings. God gave me a word for him. I went into the restroom, and said to God, “okay God I need to know that this is really you because this is scary.” Very clearly in my spirit, I heard Him say, “You know my voice.”

Okay, so I put on my big girl panties and I walked over to him and I told him, “I want to encourage you, the Lord told me to tell you that if you start your business, as long as you keep Him first, you will be successful. And you will never have to work for another man or woman again.” After he closed his mouth from the shock, he smiled, and said, “Thank you, thank you very much.”

Now here’s the thing, I wasn’t scared of him and how he looked, I was scared at what God told me to tell him! I could have really been off on that one. But I left, knowing it was God. Here it was barely January 1st and already I had 2 God encounters.  I just had to make myself available.

And again last week I was out at the grocery store and this sweet old man stopped me and started talking about potato salad and Tamales. When he was walking away, I said, “God bless you.” He responds, “I wish He would.” Talk about God opening a door to minister. I asked him if I could pray with him. He agreed. He says to me, “what about all these people?” I replied, “I don’t care about them right now.” He smiles and says, “Okay, lets get on with it then.”

And to be honest,  I really didnt care about anybody watching.

(But I haven’t always had that freedom, it took some time.=)

As we begin to pray, he looks at me and say’s, “You’re making me shake, why am I shaking?” I looked him square in the eyes and I said, “It isn’t me, its Jesus.”

You see, we don’t have to know what we are going to say or how to say it; we just have to be a willing vessel. God wants to use you the same way, but He needs you to be willing. So I challenge you, the next time you’re out and about, ask God to give you someone to bless, and He happily will do so. The more times you do it, the clearer His voice will become.

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You Are Wonderfully Made

You know God never ceases to amaze me. He is constantly stretching me, challenging me and keeping me on my toes. And truth be told, I LOVE IT!! I am so glad that He loves me too much to leave me the way I am. We all can improve, we all can grow. If you have stopped growing, regardless of age, than you should really take the time and seek the Lord. He is always trying to take us to the next level, but many of us get complacent. And friends, complacency is a tar pit! It will keep you bound forever if you let it. So I have chosen to tell the Lord, “Send me, use me, I will go, I will do it, challenge me, change me, and make me more like you.” I know many of you feel the same way and that’s awesome!  I want to encourage you to keep moving forward.

But I know for many of you, your worlds have fallen apart. You are struggling just to keep your heads above water. Whether the economy has struck you with fear, you have lost a loved one or maybe your marriage is falling apart. No matter where you are in your walk. God has not forgotten you. Let me say that again, God has not forgotten you! You have not been rejected by Him, you have not been abandoned by Him, though the world will fail you, He never will. He loves you more than your human mind will ever comprehend.

So whether you have been pushed out, pushed down, or let down, you can cry out to Jesus. He is as close as your heart. Friends, He has counted every prayer and bottled every tear. You are not alone! I know many of you are still waiting on Gods promises, your still clinging to the last bit of hope, friends, keep holding on. Your time will come, remember, when your going through hell, don’t stop and pitch a tent. KEEP MOVING FORWARD!! And keep believing, God is moved by our faith not by our emotions.

God has a plan for you and you are going to make it. Your life is far from over. You are in Christ and He loves you! And though the world has disappointed you, and people have let you down, God can be trusted, He is faithful to make good on His promises. All the promises in the bible are for you. They are not just stories we read about as history. They are alive, they are real, and they are for you. There is nothing good that God will withhold from you, but you have to step out and believe God for your victory. Start believing what God says about you.

What has God revealed about you in his word. “Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old is gone, the new has come. “(2 Cor 5:17)

Truth: I am born of God. You are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus. (Gal 3:26)

Truth: I am not fearful because I have not been given a spirit of fear. (Prov 28:1) the righteous are as bold as a lion.

Truth: We have been made the righteousness of God (Romans 1:17)

Truth: We have been saved by grace no more works. (Ephesians 2:8,9)

Truth: You are the apple of God’s eye (Psalms 17:8)

Truth: Nothing can separate Christ’s love from you, Nothing! (Romans 8:38,39)

So pick your head up, stand up tall, and put your head back, you will overcome and you will be victorious! You are fearfully and wonderfully made. Be blessed and be encouraged.

My Father, My Friend

I will be honest when I say this is something that took me a while to get use to, especially considering I was raised in a single family home, like many children these days. Now my mom did marry a wonderful man when I was 15, but by then I had already established my own ideas about what a father was and was not.

But as my relationship matured with my step father I begin to realize there was a correlation between a good earthly father and our heavenly father.

I soon realized that if we were to really see Jesus the way he sees us, we would come to know and understand him more. God wants us to look at him like our father. We always here how we are his children and he is our father, than why not treat him as such? Talk with him the way you would to someone you love and respect.

Don’t Be Intimidated
You don’t have to be intimidated by God. God just wants you to be ‘real’. If you were upset with your dad or didn’t understand something, you wouldn’t be disrespectful. You might say, “Hey what’s going on, you hurt my feelings why did you do that?”

You might not get the answer you want, but isn’t that just like a parent? Sometimes he may just say, “Because father knows best,” or “because I said so!” But know that it is for your own good. Now you don’t have to say these, long perfect religious words to talk to him. It’s ok to be angry or hurt, he wants you to tell him how you feel in your own words. Not what you think he wants to hear, don’t pacify him.

Come Just As You Are
Just like a parent he has that sixth sense he knows when we are not being truthful. He wants you to come just as you are. He doesn’t care what you wear as long as it doesn’t disrespect yourself or your family. He doesn’t care what color your hair is this week or that you have a tattoo or piercing. He may not approve and he might even be disappointed. But just like a healthy parent, he loves you unconditionally.

And as a parent he wants to hear the, “I love you’s,” the “I’m sorry I hurt you, please forgive me, you’re an awesome dad thanks for everything.” All the things a parent wants to hear. Always remember, know matter what you’ve ever done to hurt him or disappoint him, there’s nothing you could do that would make him stop loving you.

You are his flesh and blood. Don’t ever let the enemy convince you that your sin is to great, because it is not!! No matter what you’ve done or how many times, if you ask your Father with all your heart to forgive you, he will. He has already.
He might correct you but his correction is only to teach you and protect you. But that’s only because he loves you. But he does need you to trust him, so comes as you are and just be you.

Be Encouraged and Be Blessed.
To God be the Glory

Even The Wealthy Need Jesus

With the season of giving upon us, we are acutely more aware of people who need a helping hand. We give to the needy, we make food baskets, and we donate clothes and toys to people everywhere. We extend ourselves a much farther distance when it is Christmas time. As well, we should. This is Jesus birthday! After all it is more blessed to give than to receive right? Well with all that said I want to encourage you this Christmas to look beyond a person’s social status, the way they look or the way they dress. When we think of needy or those less fortunate we automatically think of people who are poor or homeless. But really, isn’t someone who doesn’t have Jesus considered less fortunate? How about the person who is poor in spirit? God recently impressed on me that there are so many different types of people in need this year. There are men and woman who look like they have everything, social status, prestige, nice clothes, many of them prosperous business owners. Yet, when we see them we don’t REALLY see them. They are some of the most broken hearted people out there. Some of them may flash a happy smile and you think “wow, must be nice. They have it all!” Yet, you have no idea, that same person is thinking about suicide. When we think of drugs, we think of, Cocaine, marijuana, and meth. But what about the prescription drugs that is being abused? Or the closet alcoholics? Many of these people I speak of are living with addictions because there trying to numb whatever pain life has dealt them. People who feel they have no value, except to write a check to someone who is asking for money. They feel alone, and taken advantage of. These people are right here in our own city! And all they really need is the love of Jesus. They need to know that someone cares and that someone is praying for them.  They need to know that they are accepted because of who they are, not because of anything they have. Many of them stand in rooms of many people, people who claim to be friends. Yet while they are surrounded on the outside, they are alone and screaming or crying on the inside. I want you to think about offering a smile, a warm hug or a handshake. And tell that person that God loves them, or simply say “God bless you!” We are so quick to tell our Christian brothers and sisters these words, yet when it comes to others, we don’t say anything! How sad is this, that we don’t say this to everyone we come in contact with on a daily basis? I remember once I was at Wal-Mart and as I was leaving I felt compelled to tell the person in front of me that Jesus loved them. They replied, “I don’t believe in Jesus.” “Really? I said, that’s too bad, because He believes in you!” That person began to weep. Friends the next time you see someone “you think has it all,” say a quick prayer for them. Prayer is a powerful thing. They need it more than you will ever know! I want to remind you all as we come to the close of another year, that Jesus DOES love you and your best days are still ahead of you!~ Gypsy

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